and I wish that I was gone, because you're not going anywhere.

the air was murky,

clouded by voices i knew and those i didn't.

i kept my silence;

it was deafening.

it was one of the times 

i wish i could 

put my thoughts into words;

shouting them out of windows,

from rooftops,

into the air;

written on blank white papers,

hurling them over fences,

into the sea,

across the waters,

anywhere;

far from you..

i needed to remember to breathe.